I think I'm having a bit of an existential crisis. Covid19 lockdown produced feelings of total apathy in me. I'm an introvert (or at least I thought I was) who indulges in mostly solitary pastimes and I didn't think it would make much difference to be honest. I was scared shitless for about 3 days when I thought I was going to lose my job for the duration but they set me up for home working at the last minute.
A huge relief but having no real structure to the day or change in environment means that work and leisure seem to blur endlessly into a general sense of unease. "Should I be working now? Should I have stopped working now? Will anyone even notice? How many people died today?"
I descended into Nurglesque sloth. By the time Easter was over, I wasn't even sure what day it was. I never thought I'd say this but I'm desperate to go back to work. Added to that, the virus has affected my immediate family back in the UK quite dramatically.
There was nothing I could do, they closed all international borders in March, but it didn't stop me from feeling guilty. Suffice to say, I didn't get much hobby time in. Eventually I stopped feeling sorry for myself and started hobbying in an effort just to feel normal. Painting for an hour every other night eventually turned into two or three hours and I had a good session today to finish him off. Maybe there is something to self discipline after all.
It definitely made me feel better and was much more productive than playing Avorion compulsively or poring over Worldometers stats. At least the pandemic seems to be winding down a bit now. Next up, The Great Depression. Or Wave Two. Reminds me of a line from 'Inertia Creeps', a Massive Attack song: "Been here before. Been here forever".
Anyway, I don't think he looks like Darth Maul any more. He reminds me of Thumper in 'Bugs Life' now that he's painted up. Completely demented. Fueled by insanity and stripped of his humanity by constant 'self enhancement'.
He capers into battle on a weaponised chassis, cutting a fine figure of a cyborg. Part man, part machine, part grasshopper. I'm sure he will make an excellent general. I'm going to have to call the other tech priest 'Bambi' now.
I might go back to converting before tackling the other one. Or maybe do something completely different for a while. Going out for bike rides definitely helps too.
Sorry to hear about your family in England. And it looks great. Really loving the green piping through him/oozing from him.ReplyDelete
Thanks Rory. My family will be ok (fingers crossed!) and its good to be painting again.Delete
Man, I feel you! You are so used to having that reliable schedule that work provides that once you're out of it, keeping up a regular life is kinda hard... Hope you're doing better every day!ReplyDelete
The Magos is of course excellent once again! I love what you did with the base and how you incorporated the different elements of the remainder of the army with the blue cloth and the colourshift panals!
Cheers Xar. This was meant to be the test model to see if the cloth and armour colours worked well together, but I got a bit distracted!Delete
He's back and with yet another AMAZING mini! (that as usual puts all I do to shame...but I'm okay with that)ReplyDelete
Hope your folks/fam in the UK make it thru alright! Have mostly come thru unscathed here, though the one that is infected appears to be coming out of it fine.
Cheers Cheef. Stay safe!Delete
I'm with you regarding the lockdown. I thought isolation wouldn't bother me either....I mean, I've been in training for years ;-) . Turns out that I go out a lot more than I realised. The resultant Hobby Ennui is less of a surprise when I can't see me getting a game in anytime soon.ReplyDelete
The Dominus looks ace. His chassis helps accentuate the fact that there is very little flesh left for him to replace...which I find delightfully disturbing.
Great model buddy!
Yeah its a strange time to be alive. I guess we'll go down in history though. I was going for 'disturbing' on the Dominus so thanks!Delete
Excellent work, really nice indeed. Hope you and your family do okay. I'm Edinburgh based and the 'new normal' needs constant readjustment for my small brain. Luckily hobby mountain is here to distract me!ReplyDelete
I'm returning to work this week. Typical, now that the hobby mojo is back. Thanks.Delete